Confession..confession..

Yesterday was the day which i couldn't tolerate to myself.
After i've squezzed my head, trying to absorb the audit chapter (Audit reporting),suddenly
i felt that i was in the other world.

I couldn't concentrate after 2 hours stuck my butt on the JL library. Then, i've decided to pack my stuffs and went straight home.

Instead of taking the bus, i've chosen to take a walk.At least i could do some thinking and YES, i did find an answer. Finally, i've found the culprit who has make me become like this.

After i;ve to talk to my best GF, i've reached the conclusion which was to cut all the connection that i have with that person. I dont know that how come he's still significance in my life after all the tears i've wasted on him.

No point of wasting ur time to someone who is not worth it..While i was studying this morning, i listened to MC song and it really captured my heart to post this in my blog..

Enjoy the song..:D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfqg5v5rVQk

M fully okay now...

Interviews..

Last weekend i have attended few interview sessions with reputable companies in London. The positions are for Msia position back in KL.

Eventhough, most of the responds were positive, i still have to go through another stage in Malaysia.Sigh, it's still uncertain in other way..2 out of 4 companies i;ve attended said that there will be a phone interview in 2-4 weeks time.

Gosh, i always got stunned when i talk to people on the phone. I would prefer to have an interview session face to face. Well, it's the employer's call..i cant do anything much.

Anyway, hope i can nail 1 job ..Amin.

Would it be a sin to like someone?

Something came up and my feelings suddenly grew back to where it used to be.
I dont know whether is this a right thing to do. But i'm not the type of person who
can keep my feelings to myself.That is the reason that i'm posting this
to my blog.

It all started when i viewed his facebook and my jaw dropped when i saw his recent picture.
Why did i viewed his facebook?I also cant find an answer for it. Our relationships have been ups and downs for a lot number of time and whenever something turned bad, later on we will get patched up again..and things gets better.

But it will get worst again when i shoot him with L questions. What should i do?
I dont want to ruin this moment again..i just want to go with the flow and wait for the sign from God.And definitely i'm going to open my options too.

All About Football...

I have watched a football tournament at Salford between Malaysian guys in UK. I never thought that cheering while watching them playing would be FUN.I think there were 8 teams and the only team that i’ve enjoyed watching was Kickers. It was because, I knew few guys who were on the team.Or maybe i also like the team’s name.

Even though the weather was extremely cold, cheering and having the adrenaline rushed in my body when they scored goals make me felt warmer.

Met new people and they were nice..quite bubbly and funny too. Even though there were things that happened that makes me felt upset, the new friends I’ve met and the jokes made the players have healed the wound at that time.

Feel lucky to have ‘crazy’ people around me...hehehehe

RoAd BlOck anD An INtErChAnGe ShUtTlE is NeEdEd!

Sometimes when the time comes, I realised that actions can be deceiving. Then, i would think that maybe i have to take an interchange shuttle or maybe do i need to wait for my usual shuttle to bring me for a ride.

Since it’s going to be spring season soon, I guess when the weather change, many other things happened in my life would change too. Even though, I felt that my presence was no longer needed, I have met lots of interesting people in my life. Life must goes on.

I’m the type of person who cherishes the friendship utmost, but if they have treated me badly by ignoring my presence while i was like 5 steps away from them, i guess this is the end.

Maybe they have found their wings to spread and able to fly alone now...Let them be.

As for me, life is like a roller-coaster. 1 second you would feel that you’re on the top of the world and 1 second, you would feel that you’re at the bottom of the world.

Yeah, having ‘adik-beradik’ would be a good thing here but if a cold treatment was given; I guess I would just rest my case and meet new interesting people.

Sometimes, being too supportive,warm and nice to people can makes people to take advantage on you..
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DEpReSsEd,CoNfUsEd ANd HeArTbRoKeN¬

There are so many reasons that make me loves facebook. I bumped into my school friends who I used to know back in my secondary school. Actually, the only reason I can still remember her is that she is pretty (not that I am lesbian) and has a pair of beautiful eyes.

After few minutes chatting in facebook, we begun adding our YM address and continue chatting in YM. Sadly, she could not remember me. Backed in my school, I was very shy and low profile person. I am very grateful with PwC because it has turned me 360 degree.

Let me quote what my MMU boss said to me “Hi Nur, good to see you again. Actually, I was very impressed with you during your interview session. You are so bubbly and that is the type of person we are looking for. Hope you will have a great time working with us”. I should give the credit to PwC since it has taught me to blend myself well to the new environment for each of the assignments.

Oh back to the story, that girl is happily married now and has 2 adorable kids (a boy and girl). Her life is so perfect. I am happy for her. She works with OCBC Puchong in Marketing Department even though she has a degree in accounting. Sometimes people used to work in a different line, which I believe it is good as we can actually equip ourselves with other knowledge and this will makes us more saleable in the market.

When I heard about her stories, I was actually quite envy, as I do not even have a perfect life (not yet). Being 27 and all I have are career and education, would not complete me as a successful person.
Life is unfair especially to me. Even though people may think that I am a career minded person, sometimes I do think that I need a man and need kids to fill the colours in my life.

I used to like someone before. I have waited for him for 5 years but end up he felt that he is not GOOD enough for me and he even said that it is his fault. He scared that if he decides to be in a relationship with me, he might end up hurt me badly.

Well, I just do not know what to say. When I read his statement, my heart was full of hate and disappointed. We are not in the early 20’s anymore, we are getting older and 27 would be the best age for him to decide whether is the relationship going anywhere.

Finally, I just conclude that he’s just not that into me. Was he?Nah, I just do not bother anymore. To me, if a person really likes you, he will never let you go away from his side.

p/s-My PMS thingy might influence me to write this post.Hicks!

Hypocrisy here and there...

It defines as acting in a manner which it’s contradictory to one’s belief and feelings or expressing false beliefs and opinions in order to conceal one’s real feelings or motives.

In psychology, hypocritical behavior is closely related to the fundamental attribution error: individuals are more likely to explain their own actions by their environment, yet they attribute the actions of others to 'innate characteristics', thus leading towards judging others while justifying ones' own actions.

I have met few people in Manchester that have this characteristic in their life. Maybe it’s how they live to pleased people. But to me, there’s no point of acting hypocrite because in the end, you are lying to yourself and the person which u lied to.

Nobody is perfect in this world, but I believe that we should learn from our mistakes. No point of portraying the angelic sight of you in front of people but deep inside of your heart, it’s full of hatefulness and anger to him or her.

As for me, I hate people who are lying and made lots of excuses. I just couldn’t tolerate with them now. A friendship to me should be full of trustworthy and sincerity.

Oh another thing I have discovered in Manchester, I noticed some of the undergrad kids are quite boastful. I have no idea what makes them behave like this, studying abroad doesn’t make u be at the top of the world. There are still a long way to go and lots of hurdle too.

Seriously there is nothing to be boastful with because you haven’t reach the ultimate goal in your life. Obtaining a degree from an overseas university wouldn’t guarantee you to be a good human being and successful person in your life.

My parents always remind me to be as humble as possible because I’m will not be here without HIS help.