In dilemma

This is not a favourite song of mine but it explains the situation i'm currently facing.

It has been 3 weeks i've worked with this company.It's a GLC and the colleagues are nice and warm.However, i don't really like the working culture whereby 'kuasa veto' diamalkan and maybe i might new to this office politics. I felt like throwing up when my immediate boss has asked me to do write up which was a proposal in BM and the sources were all in english. I also had to sleep at 5am on Saturday just because he wanted to review the paper on Sunday morning.

For the past few weeks, lots of calls for interviews came in n i;ve rejected to attend it.Until the company whom i really really want to work called me up.At first, i have turned down the offer as at that time, i was thinking that i should continue working with this GLC coz i can learn something new.But the HR insisted me to come as they said this opportunity doesn't comes twice.If i rejected the offer, they couldn't guaranteed when can i be shortlisted again.Oh ya, this company actually has offerred me a conditional offer letter when i was in London and i did pass my papers because i really really wanted to work with them..Now u can imagine, how passion and enthusiasm am i to the company.Of course m going to accept the offer.

So i went for the interview and i knew i've nailed it very very well. Before that, in the morning, 2 colleagues of mine told me that the write ups that i;m doing might be the tasks i'm going to do. As CF arm will separate into 2 which is 1-crunching numbers and 2-reporting. I was so disappointed and it makes me want leave the company so badly.

Later on, in the evening, i have received a call from that company and alhamdullilah i;ve nailed the job.The benefits has really captured my heart.It was a happy day for me..

The nightmare beguns when i took MC the next day.I was sicked ..and all of the colleagues including my bad mouth immediate boss thought that i went for an interview.So on Friday, when i come to office, i started to receive all this annoying question.After the staff meeting, i was called to meet my deputy ceo.A very emotional n unprofessional boss i would say.

She was disappointed and the first thing that came out from her mouth was

Boss:'Asyura, are u looking for a job behind my back?Please be honest with me.I have lots of friends n good networks in the market, if u lied, i tak teragak2 nak bagi u bad recommendation to people out there and what u did to us is not fair'.U took mc yesterday and i know you went for an interview.



I had no choice rather than tell her the truth...

Me:' For god sake, I WAS SICKED YESTERDAY.In fact, i got an MC today but since i'm feeling much better now, i come to work today.To be frank, I didn't look for a job. They were the one who contacted me back and offered me the job. And Yes, i've got another offer. This company actually offered me when i was in London and they were the one who drives me to pass my papers. But when i came home, they didn't contact me so i thought i don't have any hopes with them. That's why i applied for your company and alhamdulilah u guys hired me.


Boss: Then why didn't u tell me that u've been KIV when i interviewed you?takkan la because of few hundreds u want to leave?Where are u going?

me: It;s not the pay that i;m looking..it;s the benefits and i wont tell you where i;m going until it's really confirmed.But my passions mmg in that industry.


Boss: <span style="font-style:italic;">if that;s what u want, then i couldn;t do anything.If you want to learn new things, yes this is the place. I will guide u but if ur heart is no longer here. I couldnt anything.So wat's ur plan? U shld tell me earlier because i can rearrange for other people to handle the projects.


Me:Yes, i understand. It's a project based job description.Mmg i plan nak inform u but since it's still grey area..i tak nak inform lagi.once i get the green light from them which apparently the approval from the directors, i will tender and give 2 weeks notice immediately.

Boss: So when can they give u the feedback?I dont thnk u have to serve 2 weeks notice.Once u are confirm to leave, u can give 24hrs notice.tell that to HR.


Me: Insyallh by next week.


Boss: So wat happens if no respond from them by next week?


Me: I'm staying.


Boss: Okay, and if m back from australia and u're still around. Dont ever think of leaving the company again. You can go now.


So much DRAMA ON FRIDAY MORNING!!!!

Another dilemma...finally i have received an offer letter from the middle east Big 4 and i need to discuss few things with them as m worried that the accommodation might eat up my salary...
My uncle, aunty n close fren who is Manchester really support me to go to the middle east as it has always been my dreams to learn about islamic finance, islamic accouting and full adoption of IFRS.

As usual, there are other people who against it.Even my parents asked me to stay n work for my dream employer...

m so clueless..and i dont want to make d wrong decision in my life!