Chill..Cold..Nervous and finally Flu!

After not being on stage for 11 years, i finally got the chance to perform again. I thought i would have the confidence to face the crowd. However, my assumption was wrong. I was too nervous and even when we had rehearsal for 2 times, my hands were starts to shake.

Goosebumps were everywhere.Even though the performace was not that great, all of us DID had FUN. Glad to be part of the team.

A week past by and i felt sicked.Got flu since yesterday. Actually during the practices and rehearsal, i managed to find my gedikmate. He always said cute things and make me laughed. We were gossiping, bitching and laughing abt ppl's performances.hahaah.And now, no more practices, no more rehearsals, i kinda miss his presence.

Really grateful that i've met him now..He is my best Boyfriend ever! (Not that special bf ya..dun get me wrong)..:)

Small changes can make a big difference.

{ This is me before i came to UK..i have lost 8 Kgs so far and
i still need to lose few more Kgs..}

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT and things that i need to do..

The most effective way to do this is to :
1)reduce the amount of calories you eat
2)increase your levels of activity.

The healthiest way to lose weight is neither crash diets nor bursts of exercise. The body likes slow changes in terms of food and exercise. Hence, we need to change gradually day by day.

As result to that, I'm going to jog for 20mins at Withworth Park at 8am tomorrow.

There is 1 finding in the website that really shocked me.

One extra biscuit a week can lead you to gain 5lb a year – cut that biscuit out
of your diet and you'll lose the same amount.

(So, strictly no biscuit people!)

Swapping full-fat milk for semi-skimmed or making time for breakfast each morning than a diet that sets rules for all foods. I'm already doing this.

Since I'm a student now, i cant afford to go to Gym, the best cost-free exercise would be jog for 20 mins at the park which is opposite my house.I've been to the park since i'm here, so why dont i start to do it today! Because an even light exercise such as a short 20 minute walk will be beneficial if done most days of the week.Every single time you exercise more than usual, you burn calories and fat.

Reduce your calorie intake

Based on BMI calculation, M overweight and obviously i can't continue with my current eating habits. (Just had Magnum ice cream this eve)-too bad.Only have that once in fortnight.It's not possible to reduce body fat while eating lots of food, cakes and sweets. This doesn't mean you can never have any treats, but you need to learn how to limit these foods to small quantities - say, for special occasions.

Below are ways to reduce calorie intake without having to alter your diet significantly.

1)Replace fizzy drinks and fruit cordials with water.
2)Swap whole milk for semi-skimmed, or semi-skimmed for skimmed.
3)Eat less lunch than usual. For example, make your own sandwich and limit the use of margarine/butter and full-fat mayonnaise (store-bought sandwiches often contain both).
4)Stop taking sugar in tea and coffee. Okay.. definitely my coffee will taste weirder tomorrow.
5)Have smaller portions of the food you enjoy.
6)Avoid having a second helping at dinner.
7)Cut out unhealthy treats such as confectionary, sugary biscuits and crisps between meals.

My ideal weight 62kg..8kg in 4 months time..is it possible?Need to be in a good shape when m going back to KL.So both of my missions will be accomplished. (First, would be my ACCA la kan).hehehe. LOVE?Nah, maybe i will find someone at my future workplace.Amen :D

Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus

I know that u cant actually express what ur feelings from SMS. But actually, the reader should know how to differentiate a person who is upset or happy.

I;ve heard of this book for a quite long time but, due to the work commitment, i was unable to have a look at it. After the heartaching incident happened this afternoon, it has motivates me to google and search for the contents of the book and here are the summary:

a) The differences of need:

-Men primarily need:
1.Trust
2.Acceptance
3.Admiration
4.Approval
5.Appreciation
6.Encouragement

- Women on the other hand need:
1.Caring
2.Understanding
3.Respect
4.Devotion
5.Validation
6.Reassurance

Why We Argue
Common things men and women argue about are money, sex,
decisions, scheduling, values, child rearing, and household responsibilities.
When these discussions and negotiations turn into painful arguments, it is for
one reason — we are not feeling loved.
Most of these arguments occur not
because two people disagree but because either the man feels that the woman
disapproves of his point of view or of him, when in fact she disapproves because
he is not validating her point of view or speaking to her in a caring way. This
leads to an escalating argument rooted in both parties not feeling their needs
being met.
When men and women learn to approve and validate, they will no
longer have to argue. They can instead negotiate differences.

b)Scoring Points with the Opposite Sex

-Here are some suggestions that Gray offers:
1.Give her a hug
2.Practice listening and asking questions
3.Surprise her for no special reason with flowers
4.Make her dinner
5.Compliment her looks
6.Validate her feelings when she is upset
7.When she talks to you, put down the magazine or turn off the TV and give her your full
attention
8.Wash before having sex
9.Wash her car
10.Take her side when she is upset with someone

So what about with men? How can a woman score points with them? Well, it’s
all about appreciation. When a woman verbally tells a man that she appreciates
what he does for her, this scores big points with him.
This works especially
well when a man learns to do many small things for his partner, as we just
discussed. He will feel loved and want to continue to fulfill her resulting in a
cycle of increasing love.

Here are some ways that women can score with men:
1.He makes a mistake and she doesn’t say “I told you so” or offer advice.
2.He disappoints her and she doesn’t punish him.
3.He gets lost while driving and she doesn’t make a big deal out of it.
4.When he withdraws she doesn’t make him feel guilty
5.She is happy to see him when he gets home.


c)How to Communicate Difficult Feelings

Write a letter to express both feelings.

FINALLY...

d)How to Ask for Support and Get It

If you are not getting the support that you want and need in a relationship, the main culprit may be simply because you’re not asking. Asking for love and support is essential to the success of any relationship.

Mimpi..apa maksud nya..

Lately ni, i always had the same people that keeps appearing in my dreams.Last nite aku mimpi, aku terpijak kaca.Habis kaki ku berdarah.then sampai ble terase la aku cabutkan kaca tuh frm my feet.

Actually, aku g rumah kawan aku ni.Mcm pelik coz jln tuh aku biasa lalu..tp sampai2 jer..mak die sambut aku kat pintu rumah die.then aku g dapur..tak perasan aku terjatuh kan gelas..byk la tuh.yg peliknye, aku tak nampak pon gelas tuh kat hujung meja tuh.apa la bersepah2 la kaca tuh..and aku tak perasan, kaki blah kanan terpijak.dan apa lagi..berdarah la.sampai dlm mimpi pon ble rase ngilu kna kaca..

Yg peliknye..dah 2 mlm aku mimpi org tuh sekali ngan mak die.asal ek..sebab aku pk abt org tuh ker.

Pastu since aku sakit kepala arini, tak ble la blaja(Alasan!)hahahaso aku google la tafsiran mimpiku tu kat internet as follow:

Oh ya..aku pnah mimpi kna kejar dgn a group of nuns..lawak kan..

Paderi Jika anda bermimpi melihat Paderi (guru agama/pemuka agama) membaca
kitab, bermakna akan selamat dan bahagia

Kaki Jika anda bermimpi kaki anda mengeluarkan darah yang
kental,
bermakna akan menerima rezeki yang belebihan

Luka -Jika anda bermimpi kena luka hingga keluar darah atau anda banyak
luka-luka dikaki atau tangan, merupakan suatu alamat bahwa anda akan
menerima suatu pemberian dari teman-teman atau akan mendapatkan suatu rezeki dari Tuhan.

Lawak la mimpi2 ni..actually semua ni mainan tido.Yg baik dtg drp DIA dan yg jahat dtg drp kite.

Kasut tumit tinggi (ala2 sex and the city)

Citer ni menarik..rase nye citer baru kuar kat Astro..
ni the background of the main characters..

Nanu Baharudin sebagai Sofia -Dia ni ala2 carrie la..Age 38, janda yang romantik bekerja dari rumah.sebagai seorang penterjermah novel cinta. Dia popular sebagai penasihat cinta yang memberi nasihat cinta dan perhubungan di ruangan akhbar. Anak die, Mai tak hbs2 nak match make kan mak die ngan somebody.

Datin Norish Karman sebagai Ida- Pelakon yg dah tak laku.heheh Age 38 tahun salah seorang kawan kepada Sofia. Ex husband die is a lawyer,bercerai sebab husband die ada affair.But now husband die nak berbaik semula ngan die la. Owh ada anak nama Amir.Tp si amir ni takde byk dialogue sgt n die tak bercakap ngan mak die.

Amy Mastura sebagai Ros-Si gelabah..very clumsy but she is so sweet.Age 35 tahun dan die pereka fesyen.Tak pernah couple n dating dgn mana2 lelaki.Selalu kna buli ngan boss die (duda ada anak sorang).Aku rase boss die suke kat die.yele, lelaki ni ego sket.sometimes die treat kite badly..tp dlm hati die suke.

Juliana Evans sebagai Mai- Age 17 tahun.Anak Nanu, nak jadi doctor and nak sambung buat medic kat UK.tp tak pnah tgk die bace buku..haha setakat pegang buku conan jer. Die kepo..suke nak match make kan mak die ngan lelaki lain.Oh die kerja kat Baskin robbin nye outlet.

Siti Saleha sebagai Farah- Age 17 tahun, kawan Mai.Satu tempat kerja ngan Mai. Die tak la penting sangat dlm citer ni.hehe

As overall, so far aku dah tgk 8 episode..menarik..a bit cliche gak sometimes..tp suke tul ros tuh.Kelakar.Plus main character die age late 30's..so agak menarik la.
Pastu si nanu tuh..aku rase cantik la..gile suke kat rambut die dlm citer ni.nampak sophisticated tol..oH 1 more thing..never say sorry to a guy!hehehe.
Tgk la citer ni..best :)

Things that i want to buy..kekekek

4 months to go and i shall be back to MALAYSIA..and here are the list on things that i need to buy..

1. Tie racks - lots of ties for my uncles and cousins.
2. Bedlinen..plan to get Laura Ashley..for myself and my sister.We can keep it for our big day.
3. Designer's office suit..I just love UK office attire..it looks so professional.
4. Radley HandBag- well, i really need to have a good handbag for myself.
5. Queen's Anne- ppl are saying that it's cheap here..so might get 1 for myself.
and the list can never ends..
hahaha
but there is a prob..i dont know what shld i get for my aunties...Maybe i can use some of my friends brilliant ideas on what to get for ppl in Msia..

Preparation before it strikes again!

IT'S HIS LOST, NOT MINE!

I'M TOO GOOD FOR HIM AND I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER!

LOVE YOURSELF MORE BEFORE YOU LOVE A MAN!

ANDA ADALAH WANITA TERHEBAT DAN ALLAH HANYA AKAN TEMUKAN ANDA DGN LELAKI TERHEBAT JUGA..

Those are the inspirational words i've gotten from a friend.Actually she is like a big sister to me. We always consult each other when we meet road blocks in our life.

Oh ya, there was 1 episode of Al Kuliyyah that i;ve watched in youtube and it was really soothing and after i've watched it, i felt calmer. But knowing the fact that my BESTFREN is going to come soon, it has bring me back to d depression mode.

I just need to chill and cross the line that i have with that guy. From now onwards, i MUST only treat him as a fren and we shall use AKU KAU in our conversation. I know it might sounds harsh but this how things work here. If not, i will fall into his fake innocent words.

I just hope that the man which i'm going to meet will always bring a smile to my face and shall never make me go back to the old world that i;ve used to be.

Wish me luck!!!

Confession..confession..

Yesterday was the day which i couldn't tolerate to myself.
After i've squezzed my head, trying to absorb the audit chapter (Audit reporting),suddenly
i felt that i was in the other world.

I couldn't concentrate after 2 hours stuck my butt on the JL library. Then, i've decided to pack my stuffs and went straight home.

Instead of taking the bus, i've chosen to take a walk.At least i could do some thinking and YES, i did find an answer. Finally, i've found the culprit who has make me become like this.

After i;ve to talk to my best GF, i've reached the conclusion which was to cut all the connection that i have with that person. I dont know that how come he's still significance in my life after all the tears i've wasted on him.

No point of wasting ur time to someone who is not worth it..While i was studying this morning, i listened to MC song and it really captured my heart to post this in my blog..

Enjoy the song..:D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfqg5v5rVQk

M fully okay now...

Interviews..

Last weekend i have attended few interview sessions with reputable companies in London. The positions are for Msia position back in KL.

Eventhough, most of the responds were positive, i still have to go through another stage in Malaysia.Sigh, it's still uncertain in other way..2 out of 4 companies i;ve attended said that there will be a phone interview in 2-4 weeks time.

Gosh, i always got stunned when i talk to people on the phone. I would prefer to have an interview session face to face. Well, it's the employer's call..i cant do anything much.

Anyway, hope i can nail 1 job ..Amin.

Would it be a sin to like someone?

Something came up and my feelings suddenly grew back to where it used to be.
I dont know whether is this a right thing to do. But i'm not the type of person who
can keep my feelings to myself.That is the reason that i'm posting this
to my blog.

It all started when i viewed his facebook and my jaw dropped when i saw his recent picture.
Why did i viewed his facebook?I also cant find an answer for it. Our relationships have been ups and downs for a lot number of time and whenever something turned bad, later on we will get patched up again..and things gets better.

But it will get worst again when i shoot him with L questions. What should i do?
I dont want to ruin this moment again..i just want to go with the flow and wait for the sign from God.And definitely i'm going to open my options too.